An Ode to Mr. Jimmy Jon Redcorn

When my heart broke into tiny little pieces, I never thought that it would be able to mend, but let me tell you what, it did.  I give full responsibility to Mr. Jimmy.  He is not the typical guy that I go for, that's for damn sure.  I'm not exactly country girl material and he is a country boy.  His whole family comes from a labor intensive family, whereas the majority of mine has sat at desks for most of their lives.  He works on cars.  I don't know shit about cars.  What I do know is that it took me five long months to fall in love with him, but when I did, I fell hard.  We're the corny couple that lays out on blankets during the middle of the summer and stargazes for hours.  We're the corny couple that read books out loud to each other.  We're the corny couple that jams out to Sinatra while road tripping.  We are both goofy motherfuckers and that, my friends, is where we find our middle ground.
My point is that sometimes things work out best if you think outside of the box.  Sometimes you have to break that normality that you are so used to because the best things in life are the things that are unexpected. 
Happy Valentine's Day everybody, I hope you find a love like that someday.

Frank Sinatra - The Way You Look Tonight

Getting Back in the Game

After heartbreak, where do you go?  I mean, you committed your full trust in someone, possibly lost touch or just plain lost some of your friends, and gave 110% love just to have your heart torn savagely apart.  The best way to get over a break up is reinvention, at least that's always the way that I deal with it.  Lose that extra weight you have been carrying around for however long.  Get your hair dyed.  Get that piercing or that tattoo.  Party your ass off and hook up with random people.  Above all, put faith in your friends and family because they are the ones that are still around and always will be. 
As far as new love, well, don't rush it.  There are many more fish in the sea (incredibly cliche, but true).  As difficult as it may be to comprehend, we are genetically engineered to have multiple partners and that soul mate stuff if bullshit.  We, as humans have the chemical possibilities to fall in love more than once.  The only advice that I can really give is to live and learn.  Learn from mistakes made in the past, wear a protective armor around your heart and the people that will treat you properly will chisel past that armor because they know that you are worth it.  Which you are. Just because one person is not compatible with you, doesn't mean that others aren't.  It simply means that they were too stupid to see what a great person you are.  Don't give up and don't listen to that lovey dovey heartbreak shit because all that does is trigger depression.

Three Little Birds - Bob Marley

Unrequited

Kate Nash - Nicest Thing

There is nothing worse than unrequited love and unfortunately, it happens ALL THE TIME.  Whether it be with a close friend, a distant friend, a co-worker, or just some random person that keeps popping into your life, either end of the stick gets screwed on the deal of unrequited love (at least those that don't play with others).
Unrequited love is pretty self explanatory, someone is into the person way more than the other person.  It is embarrassing if you swallow your pride to admit that you like someone, just to find out that they do not feel the same way about you.  On the other end of the spectrum, you could really enjoy spending time with someone that happens to be in love with you.  If you keep hanging out with them and acting the same, it is very unlikely that those feelings will just 'poof' disappear.  All in all, unrequited love is one of the hardest things that anyone and everyone will ever have to deal with and quite honestly, there's no easy solution to the problem.

You Could Be Happy

Snow Patrol - You Could Be Happy

This is by far one of the most depressing songs that I have ever listened to and I'm sure that many people can agree with that.  Why?  Because every single one of us that has been in love wonders 'what if'.  What if I stayed with him?  What if I moved back home to be with him?
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about my first love.  I always felt like it was some weird obsession, but I have come to realize that there are many people that go through it.  How can I not think about someone that I spent more than half of my life with... the half of which was my entire teenage years.  I will never forget him.  Of course, I will never forget what he did to me either.  I will never forget the mistakes that I made with him and the regrets and bundles of guilt that I have due to those mistakes.
I have come to realize that most of the time things don't exactly work out the way that they were planned to work out, but that doesn't mean that life has a bunch of failure in store for your future.  Instead, it means that you are supposed to learn from previous mistakes that were made.
My past relationship did not have loyalty, trust, or honesty.  I always thought that was the kind of thing that could develop over time.  I have come to learn that it's not like that at all though.  It's like when you walk into a classroom for the first day and the teacher tells you that you have an 'A' (a 100% so far), but that can change easily with the level of commitment that you put forth.  Really, it's the same with relationships.  If you start out honest.  If you start out loyal.  If you start out trustworthy than that person has no reason to doubt you or lie to you unless if you make a mistake.  It's not really the sort of thing that can develop overtime.  Although, I must admit that it took me a few months with my current boyfriend to have trust in anyone, but that's simply because I was still so broken from the past.
There are naive parts of me that I will never get back.  There are pieces of my heart that will always remain broken. 
To the singles: Make sure that you find yourself before you try to find others.

The Bitch about Love

With it being so close to Valentine's Day, I decided that for the next week, my blogs are going to be love related.  I think I'm going to start with the Love sucks theme and then move toward loving love closer to V-Day.  So, toward the beginning of the week, singles, this is for you.

Love fucking blows.  Stay single


Single - Natasha Bedingfield

To the Fish

Now, I know this may sound silly, but I get very attached to my pets.  I had a betta, Carlos, that died this morning.  It is really weird the feeling I get inside from the passing of Carlos.  Like, I can remember many a time talking to him while I was doing dishes or going to the pet store to get him new decorations.  He loved new decorations.
I sound pretty crazy right now.
Okay, so Carlos was a loved pet.  There is no doubt.

The drinking I'm partaking in tonight is for Carlos...