Optimism

No, I have not been alive for too long. I can't say that I have ever really taken full responsibility for all aspects of my life. There are many experiences that I have yet to obtain. I hardly make any money. I am in debt, like everyone else alive. Although I've been working on it, I admit that I'm not pleased with my health. I'm not perfect in anyway. I guess that's what makes me human.
Throughout the twenty-two years that I have been alive, I have realized that an optimistic lifestyle cures every madness and struggle that one can have. Life can be all that much better if only we could all look on the bright side of things.
Bad days do happen. Lessons are sometimes learned in the most difficult ways possible. Sometimes, we get let down by people that we put our full trust in. We all make mistakes that hurt ourselves or others. Why dwell on what pains us? Why beat ourselves up and bring ourselves further down because of one little flawed option that life gave us? It simply does not make sense.
Play in the rain, even if your hair gets frizzy. Dance, even if there isn't music. Feel the music, even if it isn't your favorite genre. Sing, even if you can't. Smile, it makes you more approachable. Laugh, even if you feel like crying. Don't judge anyone, because ultimately, we all have similar problems. Open your mind and listen to others opinions and beliefs, even if you don't always agree. Try not to have such a shallow eye, there's too much beauty among everything to turn your back on it. Respect is a lovely thing to give and receive, worth more than money. Loyalty is one of the strongest characteristics a person can have. Don't lie, you would be surprised how many people understand and would rather here the truth. Love with all of your heart, even if it's been broken.
Life is too short.

 Ingrid Michaelson - Everybody

Strange Human Behaviors

The other day, Animal Refuge Center in Muncie, IN flooded.  They lost electricity, the furnace went out, animals were dangerously deep in this water, etc.  Within a couple of hours, all the dogs had foster homes.  A few more hours and all of the cats had foster homes.
My question
Why do we not feel sympathetic for our fellow man/woman when they are on the streets?  Why would we take in a stray animal before letting a human stranger stay in our home?

And yes, my roommate and I are part of this statistic.
This is Hortence; also known as Kitty or Sabrina.
She is our foster cat until her home is fixed.

 

John Legend & The Roots - Humanity 

Dreamin On a Grey Afternoon

Dreams have always intrigued me, I suppose because when I do remember my dreams they are so damn vivid to the point where I can remember them years down the line.
Last night I had a dream that I was in one of the buildings on campus, when all of a sudden about a hundred cops were outside and I could hear my name come from their lips.  Apparently, they had accused me of murder because I happened to be in the same building around the same time as someone was murdered or perhaps committed suicide.  Instead of confronting them and admitting that I played no part in the death, I ran.  I don't know why, it is something that I would never do.  Family and friends were helping me hide, but only for short periods of time because, in dream world, the cops were all over the crime and in high pursuit of finding me.  Posters were up, pictures on the television.  News reports.  Finally, I found refuge in a cottage that my brother and sister in law had just recently moved out of, but had not sold.  This is when I woke up.
According to dream interpretation, the dream represents that I am failing in honoring my commitments and obligations.  It also implies that I'm being overwhelmed, shocked, and disappointed.  It also says that I may be getting a sense of rejection from people around me and that I harbor inspirational emotions.  It also talks about internal battles with myself and anxiety over the future.  It says that the cottage may represent an altered sense of reality and escaping responsibilities.
It's funny because I think that these dream interpreters look way too deep into dreams, but for once, the interpretation is pretty accurate.  My laziness has really peaked to an all time high and I want to change this so badly.

40 Day Dream by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes

Longing to Leave

There is such a big big world and I don't get out of the town I'm in nearly as much as I should.  You probably don't either.  Be spontaneous and go somewhere.  Right now.  You only live once, why not?

New York - Cat Power

Just a Shitty Day

Some people call it checks and balances.  I call it life.  There are some days when I feel on top of the world.  There are other days when I feel like, well, shit.  Today is one of those shitty days.  It all started last night and continually got worse throughout the day.    BUT, it is days like this that makes days like tomorrow so much better, unless if that happens to be as shitty as today, which is possible.  I guess these are the days when I feel like everything that I've been working toward is pointless and getting me nowhere and how I should have worked harder and how I can never be as great as I want to be.  Instead of ranting about how my life sucks, well, I'll stop.  There is no easy solution to these problems. Too bad I am a poor bitch.  This is one of those days where if I had a reliable vehicle, I would drive for hours and hours, just to clear my mind.

It's days like this that I realize how grateful I am for my friends.

Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On

The Bitch about Love

With it being so close to Valentine's Day, I decided that for the next week, my blogs are going to be love related.  I think I'm going to start with the Love sucks theme and then move toward loving love closer to V-Day.  So, toward the beginning of the week, singles, this is for you.

Love fucking blows.  Stay single


Single - Natasha Bedingfield

To the Fish

Now, I know this may sound silly, but I get very attached to my pets.  I had a betta, Carlos, that died this morning.  It is really weird the feeling I get inside from the passing of Carlos.  Like, I can remember many a time talking to him while I was doing dishes or going to the pet store to get him new decorations.  He loved new decorations.
I sound pretty crazy right now.
Okay, so Carlos was a loved pet.  There is no doubt.

The drinking I'm partaking in tonight is for Carlos...

How to Throw and Amazing Afterparty

So, there have been times, I'm sure where they have last calls for drinks and you are definitely not ready to stop partying... What do you do?  Throw an after party.  This is when you invite a mass group of people back to your house, whether you know them or not (although it probably is a better move to make sure that you at least kind of sort know some of them).  The house can be small or big, it doesn't really matter to drunk people.  All you need is music, cheap alcohol, and an awesome roommate.  I have all three of those things.  Tips for this though, always keep a party playlist on your ipod, which includes remixes, dubstep, or popular music that everyone can jam to.  Always keep a cheap bottle of alcohol in the house for unexpected guests.  If you invite someone to your house it is necessary to offer them some drink or some sex.  I tend to offer the first 99.9% of the time.  There is always a bottle of Komkatcha or Dark Eyes vodka in the freezer, just waiting for guests.  Really, it's easy, just don't stop the party.  Keep it going down the street back to your house.  There was one time, someone came over and brought a whole bucket full of jungle juice.  It was fantastic.  After parties happen often in this household and sometimes, they're more fun than the party you were at!  My roommate and I have seriously considered getting a babysitter though, after someone puked in our sink.  Get those speakers pumping and don't stop the party!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0H57JeQYN4

How to Convincingly Lie

Now, I do not condone lying, because quite honestly, things seem to work out better if you were to just admit the truth.  However, I have come to realize that there are certain times when lying is almost necessary.  If there is one thing that I have learned from my ex, it is how to lie... He has me beat, but I picked up a few tips along the way.
1.) Come up with something that you, yourself would believe and go out of your way to make sure that it cannot be proven as a lie.
For example: When I was in high school one time, I wanted to skip class to hang out with my boyfriend at the time.  At lunch, I stole a ketchup pack, went to the bathroom, and applied it to my genital region (on the pants).  Oh no, Miss Office Lady, I started my period.  Wam Bam, there you go.  No one is going to argue with that. Although, if you are a man, I don't suggest this one... Instead, tell them you have explosive diarrhea or something.
2.) Convince yourself that the lie is the truth.  I have come to realize that it is not incredibly difficult to do this.  All you have to do is recite it over and over and over until you can't even remember the full true story.  This way, you can also have your story straight just in case if anyone questions it.
3.) Put on your acting skills.  All of us were equipped with them, all of us have the capability to use them effectively.  The time that this is super appropriate is at gift giving time, when you get that super lame gift that you can't even understand why someone would get it for you.
For example:  My grandmother never gives amazing gifts, as much as she tries it just doesn't happen, bless her heart.  One year I got this sweatshirt with an 'A' on the front.  An 'A', that doesn't even make any sort of sense.  It was hideous aside from not making sense, BUT, she is my grandmother and I love her to death so I used my acting skills.  By the end of the day, you would have thought that she gave me the best gift that I have ever gotten in my whole life.
4.) Never switch up your story.  This goes along with the first two.  No matter how ridiculous the whole story may be, no one can convict you otherwise, unless if they have proof.  Therefore, stick to your original story as much as possible.
5.) Lastly, if you get caught, admit the truth.  It is not only more noble to admit that you fucked up, but if you are trapped in a corner, give yourself the freedom, no matter how painful it may be.  Afterall, we are human, we are imperfect, and we are all bound to make mistakes.