Here I am at 5:43 AM, I woke up around 9 AM yesterday morning and have yet to go to sleep. Usually I would blame this on my insomnia, but about two or three times a semester I have another excuse: too much homework. Of course, this is all my fault, I could have easily prevented this by buying the book at least a few weeks ago instead of ordering it last Friday and receiving it Tuesday. Not to mention actually working on something or studying for something ahead of time. After 4 years of college, you would think that I would learn this shit, but no. I'm alive off of uppers and plan on being alive on uppers until around 8 pm this evening. I guess every action has a consequence. I just know that if they had a major in procrastination I would have my Doctorate by this point in time.
John Lennon - Watching the Wheels
March 3, 2011
February 24, 2011
Summer
How many times can I come
back to this place?
And how much it changes over time.
How this music made tears flow from my face.
Now, it is a different feeling;
A different vision.
I used to see you and your chameleon irises.
I used to see a veil over my face.
What used to be white has turned to yellow and green
and blue.
Bright blue.
I now see a brilliant day.
A gorgeous day.
A day when my bare skin can touch the air
and feel wonderful.
A day when the lilies are in full bloom.
What used to be winter
is now summer
What used to be dead
is now alive.
Pachelbel - Canon In D Major
back to this place?
And how much it changes over time.
How this music made tears flow from my face.
Now, it is a different feeling;
A different vision.
I used to see you and your chameleon irises.
I used to see a veil over my face.
What used to be white has turned to yellow and green
and blue.
Bright blue.
I now see a brilliant day.
A gorgeous day.
A day when my bare skin can touch the air
and feel wonderful.
A day when the lilies are in full bloom.
What used to be winter
is now summer
What used to be dead
is now alive.
Pachelbel - Canon In D Major
February 22, 2011
Planned Parenthood Shenanigans
"Planned Parenthood Federation of America is the nation's leading sexual and reproductive health care provider and advocate".
So, let me ask and pardon my French in doing so; Why the fuck are they trying to getting rid of it?
I watched news casts from both conservative and liberal stations, go figure, they are polar opposites on the subject, just like political parties are with pretty much everything. I have to go left for this one. Fox News argues that they're telling young girls to get rid of their problems with abortion and they want to hear as little about their situations as possible... For instance, if they were raped by some 40 year old man, they should keep that to themselves. Do I agree that this is wrong? Yes. Obviously, whether you are young or old, it is important for you to get your story out, but in the same token, that's not what Planned Parenthood is about. You go to Planned Parenthood with a problem, they will give you a solution, they won't give you therapy. Instead of getting rid of Planned Parenthood altogether, why not just get rid of the people that act so rudely in these situations? And, if this organization no longer has the funding, where are these women going to go?
I remember one time I went with my friend to this "Women's Center" place. She was pregnant. She wanted to make sure. She was, but the option of abortion was not brought up one single time. Instead, they gave her a bag with baby cloths in it and some Christian quotes over life and children. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. She was very young at the time and was not financially or emotionally ready for a child.
The last time that I checked, this was a nation founded on diverse religions, so why are we advocating places like this instead of places like Planned Parenthood. Planned Parenthood is the place to go for underage kids with genuine concerns that they do not want to reveal to their parents. Perhaps, instead of cutting the funding, they should look for ways to improve a much needed program.
Come on America, let's think about the ladies too. Maybe they should start cutting the funding to some of these political leaders that have their heads so far up their asses that they can't even be remotely down to earth and know 'real-life' situations.
Bright Eyes - Lime Tree
So, let me ask and pardon my French in doing so; Why the fuck are they trying to getting rid of it?
I watched news casts from both conservative and liberal stations, go figure, they are polar opposites on the subject, just like political parties are with pretty much everything. I have to go left for this one. Fox News argues that they're telling young girls to get rid of their problems with abortion and they want to hear as little about their situations as possible... For instance, if they were raped by some 40 year old man, they should keep that to themselves. Do I agree that this is wrong? Yes. Obviously, whether you are young or old, it is important for you to get your story out, but in the same token, that's not what Planned Parenthood is about. You go to Planned Parenthood with a problem, they will give you a solution, they won't give you therapy. Instead of getting rid of Planned Parenthood altogether, why not just get rid of the people that act so rudely in these situations? And, if this organization no longer has the funding, where are these women going to go?
I remember one time I went with my friend to this "Women's Center" place. She was pregnant. She wanted to make sure. She was, but the option of abortion was not brought up one single time. Instead, they gave her a bag with baby cloths in it and some Christian quotes over life and children. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. She was very young at the time and was not financially or emotionally ready for a child.
The last time that I checked, this was a nation founded on diverse religions, so why are we advocating places like this instead of places like Planned Parenthood. Planned Parenthood is the place to go for underage kids with genuine concerns that they do not want to reveal to their parents. Perhaps, instead of cutting the funding, they should look for ways to improve a much needed program.
Come on America, let's think about the ladies too. Maybe they should start cutting the funding to some of these political leaders that have their heads so far up their asses that they can't even be remotely down to earth and know 'real-life' situations.
Bright Eyes - Lime Tree
February 20, 2011
Dreamin On a Grey Afternoon
Dreams have always intrigued me, I suppose because when I do remember my dreams they are so damn vivid to the point where I can remember them years down the line.
Last night I had a dream that I was in one of the buildings on campus, when all of a sudden about a hundred cops were outside and I could hear my name come from their lips. Apparently, they had accused me of murder because I happened to be in the same building around the same time as someone was murdered or perhaps committed suicide. Instead of confronting them and admitting that I played no part in the death, I ran. I don't know why, it is something that I would never do. Family and friends were helping me hide, but only for short periods of time because, in dream world, the cops were all over the crime and in high pursuit of finding me. Posters were up, pictures on the television. News reports. Finally, I found refuge in a cottage that my brother and sister in law had just recently moved out of, but had not sold. This is when I woke up.
According to dream interpretation, the dream represents that I am failing in honoring my commitments and obligations. It also implies that I'm being overwhelmed, shocked, and disappointed. It also says that I may be getting a sense of rejection from people around me and that I harbor inspirational emotions. It also talks about internal battles with myself and anxiety over the future. It says that the cottage may represent an altered sense of reality and escaping responsibilities.
It's funny because I think that these dream interpreters look way too deep into dreams, but for once, the interpretation is pretty accurate. My laziness has really peaked to an all time high and I want to change this so badly.
40 Day Dream by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes
Last night I had a dream that I was in one of the buildings on campus, when all of a sudden about a hundred cops were outside and I could hear my name come from their lips. Apparently, they had accused me of murder because I happened to be in the same building around the same time as someone was murdered or perhaps committed suicide. Instead of confronting them and admitting that I played no part in the death, I ran. I don't know why, it is something that I would never do. Family and friends were helping me hide, but only for short periods of time because, in dream world, the cops were all over the crime and in high pursuit of finding me. Posters were up, pictures on the television. News reports. Finally, I found refuge in a cottage that my brother and sister in law had just recently moved out of, but had not sold. This is when I woke up.
According to dream interpretation, the dream represents that I am failing in honoring my commitments and obligations. It also implies that I'm being overwhelmed, shocked, and disappointed. It also says that I may be getting a sense of rejection from people around me and that I harbor inspirational emotions. It also talks about internal battles with myself and anxiety over the future. It says that the cottage may represent an altered sense of reality and escaping responsibilities.
It's funny because I think that these dream interpreters look way too deep into dreams, but for once, the interpretation is pretty accurate. My laziness has really peaked to an all time high and I want to change this so badly.
40 Day Dream by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes
February 19, 2011
Longing to Leave
There is such a big big world and I don't get out of the town I'm in nearly as much as I should. You probably don't either. Be spontaneous and go somewhere. Right now. You only live once, why not?
New York - Cat Power
New York - Cat Power
February 17, 2011
Just a Shitty Day
Some people call it checks and balances. I call it life. There are some days when I feel on top of the world. There are other days when I feel like, well, shit. Today is one of those shitty days. It all started last night and continually got worse throughout the day. BUT, it is days like this that makes days like tomorrow so much better, unless if that happens to be as shitty as today, which is possible. I guess these are the days when I feel like everything that I've been working toward is pointless and getting me nowhere and how I should have worked harder and how I can never be as great as I want to be. Instead of ranting about how my life sucks, well, I'll stop. There is no easy solution to these problems. Too bad I am a poor bitch. This is one of those days where if I had a reliable vehicle, I would drive for hours and hours, just to clear my mind.
It's days like this that I realize how grateful I am for my friends.
Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On
It's days like this that I realize how grateful I am for my friends.
Corinne Bailey Rae - Put Your Records On
February 16, 2011
5 Reasons Why Women Are the Way We Are
I understand that men struggle with women, as far as our behaviors and emotions, but you know what? There is a reason that we are the way that we are, which can sometimes be crazy. But the truth is we're beautiful creatures that should be respected. I've never been exactly a feminist, per say, but I feel that women are equally as crazy as men and we deserved to be treated that way especially in the world that we live in now.
So here's my 5 reasons why we are the way that we are
1.) Hormones... you trying having excess hormones and be normal, seriously. There is at least a solid week where our hormones control our lives. We realize that we are being crazy, but we can't help it. Sorry, but not really. You want to blame someone, blame genetics or God.
2.) We can hold a child. Now, I know that this seems inadequate and rather... duh-ish. BUT, this plays an important role in sex. Some women just don't enjoy having sex because they are scared that they are going to get pregnant and although men have to deal with this too, to a certain extent, it ultimately boils down to what the woman chooses to do.
3.) Make-up. I'm not too entirely sure why or where this shit was invented, but it took off like woah. If we don't take thirty to forty minutes a day getting ready (and that's if we're quick), we risk looking like crack whores and hearing shit from all sorts of people.
4.) Hair prep. This kind of goes along with the last one, but appearance is super important in our culture, for some odd reason, and the majority of us cannot just walk out of the door without doing something to our hair. So, yes, we can get irritated with all this prep.
5.) Double-standards. This mainly boils down to sex. It is, in our society, completely okay if a guy sleeps with a lot of women, but if a woman sleeps with a lot of men, well, they are a slut or a whore. Now, you try to be single and have somewhat of a sex life with that double standard, it doesn't work.
I'm not going to lie, there are pleasures in life that we get to indulge ourselves in. For instance, chivalry. There is no doubt that I love getting a meal paid for or movies or whatever and for that certain 'tradition', I do feel bad for men, but you know what? There's just some things that should and will never change :) Deal with it. But, know that we know that we're crazy, but the truth is boys, you couldn't live without us and you won't so get used to it and try to understand that our body works differently than yours.
I Am Woman - Helen Reddy
So here's my 5 reasons why we are the way that we are
1.) Hormones... you trying having excess hormones and be normal, seriously. There is at least a solid week where our hormones control our lives. We realize that we are being crazy, but we can't help it. Sorry, but not really. You want to blame someone, blame genetics or God.
2.) We can hold a child. Now, I know that this seems inadequate and rather... duh-ish. BUT, this plays an important role in sex. Some women just don't enjoy having sex because they are scared that they are going to get pregnant and although men have to deal with this too, to a certain extent, it ultimately boils down to what the woman chooses to do.
3.) Make-up. I'm not too entirely sure why or where this shit was invented, but it took off like woah. If we don't take thirty to forty minutes a day getting ready (and that's if we're quick), we risk looking like crack whores and hearing shit from all sorts of people.
4.) Hair prep. This kind of goes along with the last one, but appearance is super important in our culture, for some odd reason, and the majority of us cannot just walk out of the door without doing something to our hair. So, yes, we can get irritated with all this prep.
5.) Double-standards. This mainly boils down to sex. It is, in our society, completely okay if a guy sleeps with a lot of women, but if a woman sleeps with a lot of men, well, they are a slut or a whore. Now, you try to be single and have somewhat of a sex life with that double standard, it doesn't work.
I'm not going to lie, there are pleasures in life that we get to indulge ourselves in. For instance, chivalry. There is no doubt that I love getting a meal paid for or movies or whatever and for that certain 'tradition', I do feel bad for men, but you know what? There's just some things that should and will never change :) Deal with it. But, know that we know that we're crazy, but the truth is boys, you couldn't live without us and you won't so get used to it and try to understand that our body works differently than yours.
I Am Woman - Helen Reddy
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