Depression

Depression is where (excuse my French) you don't really give a fuck about anything anymore.  Depression is where you cannot even release yourself through your release, whether it be writing, painting, running, fixing things, dancing, driving, playing an instrument, etc.
Depression is when you don't really feel like doing much of anything, although you don't want to be alone. 
Depression is where you can sit alone for hours just thinking about how much your life sucks in a silent atmosphere.
Depression is where you don't feel as though dying would be a horrible thing.
Depression is where every single food put in front of your face seems unappetizing.
Depression is where, even though you feel as though you're  at rock bottom, you just keep sinking further into the black abyss.

Creep - Radiohead

FAT America

It is a well known fact that the United States of America is one of the fattest countries on this planet. There are so many movies, so many advertisements, so many television shows, news broadcasts, posters, labels that go into detail about this gruesome statistic.  It's about time for me to shed that bad American heritage.
The American Food Song

That Might Be Nice

 Two strangers meet, and the bond is so intriguing that they have the ideology to get married within only a few months.  Immediate attraction.  Bold moves and fearless behaviors.  A glimmer in the eyes that make a chest feel hollow.  Compelling emotions triggered to life. An amazing aroma inhaled into previously unoccupied areas.  Primal pairing.  The heart thinks before the head and regret becomes an everyday thought .....or does it?




Bright Eyes - First Day of My Life
First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes

Holy Hell It's Hot!

This weather has given me motivation only to sit in the air conditioning and watch tv.  If only I could take a trip to the Great Lakes where I know the water is still not like bathwater....
It definitely has me thinking though.  That Camp dude said that the world was going to end May 21, 2011 and we're still here, but shit is pretty intense this year as far a weather, animals, and well... I guess that's it as far as I know.  I mean, we've had nearly 103% over the normal tornado outbreaks in the country.  Not to mention, we've hit some records as far as high temperatures in the Midwest.  Southern California had an outbreak of tornadoes!  There have been super powerful tornadoes.  It's almost "Day After Tomorrow" - esque.
And the insects...   Because of the strange atmosphere that we've had, the bugs are absolutely horrible this year.  The bees, the ants, the flies, and the mosquitoes.  Those damn mosquitoes are biting at victims ruthlessly, making it look like a first grade classroom infected with chicken pox.
It's starting to add up, the apocalypse is coming, or maybe it already came.  But what can you do?  Give your money to me so I can spend hundreds of millions of dollars on advertising?  I think so ;)

Sometimes, It Just Feels Good to Be Lazy

I had so many plans this summer, as I always make during the summer time.  I don't know why I make plans either, the summer is a nice time to just relax and take it day by day.  I enjoy a nice glass of wine or other recreational times with friends.  I enjoy to read a book at the pace that I want to read a book by. 
I don't want to follow specific times, just drift through life and work to make money to do that drifting.  It's weird because as a student, the summers are easier, even if I am working 40 hrs every other week.  Speaking of being lazy, time to go watch a movie with friends.  So much for writing....


Right as Rain - Adele

Religion Is Like a Penis

"Religion is like a penis.  It's fine to have one.  It's fine to be proud of it.  But please don't whip it out in public and start waving it around.  And please don't try to shove it down our throats." -Anonymous quote.
I have to admit that this is one of my favorite quotes about religion because that's kinda the way that I feel.  See, the church that I felt most comfortable in, in my whole life was a non-denominational church.   I believe in something (at least I want to believe in something), but I don't rule out the possibility of anything.  I believe in religion, whatever it may be.  I don't trash talk religions (publicly), however, I feel like people do taint a lot of them with their politics.  I hate it when people tell me what to believe or how to live my life because it's MY life.  They can live life however they want and I really don't care because it's theirs to live.  So, if you are rather closed-minded when it comes to religion perhaps you should consider being a little more open and respectful to what others believe or don't believe.  Who are you to judge?


John Lennon - Imagine

Net Working

So, of course you all know how lazy I am by now.  My biggest weakness.  However, there are certain things that I go above and beyond to do and you know what?  Most of the time it involves my friends.  If there is one thing that I have gotten from college, net working is definitely it.  The more people you know and are on good terms with, the more opportunities you are exposed to.  Just remember that, if not anything else.  Because ultimately, when it comes to a job where the employer knows and likes someone versus a job where the person is a blank face, well, I think you know who will get the job.

Oh, by the way, I took Hortense back last Tuesday, it was very sad, but I think that she will do okay.  I don't think that I could get another Kitty anytime soon because she was the very best cat that I've ever known.  I would take her, but I cannot assume responsibility for a living thing at this unstable time in my life.  Who knows where I'll be in a year from now.

The Beatle Dubstep Remix